Samsons blog: toilets, everybody wants to go to jamaica

today was a cool day. i brought in some of my work to college to get a little feedback and i guess its goin well, i have an idea of what they mean to me, but i'd rather someone experience it with one hundred percent innocence.

also, brought on some new things... i lent my video camera to a friend over the holiday break and i happened to have some footage of my last project, which was sort of my first dive into the area i would be getting my degree in, so as you can imagine, its quite a paramount piece to have recorded in that respect.
well, i met up with my friend today and she was very brave and admitted that the camera had met its untimely death in a toilet. curiously, a couple weeks before i was working on my final term project and i happened to have toilets be the main object in the photo. ~~~~~~~
though most people would be pretty upset at finding their video camera is gone, and the fact there was the only (thoroughly) recorded work of my project was on it, i was quite pleased to hear her tell me this.
i've been debating whether or not to take a gap year next year or stay here for uni and try to get my degree. i've been thinking about this since november. i'm worried about paying back the loans and supporting myself on my own..most ideas of uni next year scare me, i think the only thing that would keep me is music but it think in this situation the cons outweigh the pros. i take what happened with the video camera as a clue or message from the universe. its as if the result of the time and energy i put into that project was spat out back at me, deterring me. of course, i'm not taking anything with the weight of stones, but it came across to me like a subtle tap on the shoulder telling me which way to go...who knows its all speculation and by now you may really find me and this annoying, but i do believe this.
here's a photo of that project i was diong